thoughts

January 10, 2007

i've been entertaining thoughts of writing a novel or a story. i thought i've abandoned that dream along with my dream of being a food critique one day. 

apparently dreams never die, however, time is no longer my friend and i am finding the lack of it to be daunting.  more daunting however, is of having lost my "mojo" of writing and telling a good story in writing. i have sadly gone into this blackhole of nothingness where i am having a hard time putting my thoughts into a coherent sentence.

thus, i've taken  the responsibility of practicing my writing one step at a time. i've taken to contributing into an ongoing fiction writing activity and expressing myself more. i have also revisited my glorious writing past though reading my scribblings and poetry again. ah, to be young and naive, when most feelings were new and raw.

year in review

i'm gathering my thoughts as i write this. the year passed by so fast and with so many surprises–some good, and some bad. both were opportunities to learn from.

words elude me tonight as i write this too, the task of going back and replaying each event tires me, and honestly, it's not something i look forward to. i remember the days when i would write in my diary events flowed easily, memories, good or bad were easily remembered. writing was a gift that i used to have, but now i just generally rant.

gee, what would i write?

perhaps i could write that 2006 was the year i lost my rose-colored glasses and saw the world with extra-critical eyes. yet the same eyes saw a chosen few who are every measure of a child of god that they are.

perhaps i could write that 2006 was the year i felt the most secluded and lonely, yet surrounded by people. there's this unspeakable loneliness that i cannot fathom, that i cannot acknowledge because i cannot describe it.

this new year, just like everybody else, i will have a set of new year's resolutions and goals for the year.

1. Choose to be more happy and grateful
2. Earn money–for an ipod, a mac, an HMO, a josh groban concert
3. Exercise–for good this time!
4. Eat better–i had started that habit and was already doing it habitually, until last year, when i felt lonely being the healthy person out.
5. Stay true to my deadlines
6. Play less games–so that i could read more, do more…THE SIMS 2 IS EVIL! I SWEAR!
7. Do more crafting–and actually finish them
8. Channel my inner author–i used to write a lot, but not much nowadays.
9. Recycle
10. Read more–my upcoming reading is now almost my sister's height, and that's not good. again i blame the distraction of playing games on my computer.
11. Cook more often–just because our housekeeper has learned to cook from Amici doesn't mean i'm not a great cook anymore, after all, i taught her most of the things i know…;)
12. Go more good deeds at random people–and tell them to PAY IT FORWARD.

we'll see next year if i achieved them all.